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Reconnecting to My Buddhahood

Happiness—Masami with her husband, Glenn, and dog, Ginger, Boston, April 2022. Photo by Donald and Virginia Benson.

by Masami Kelly
Cambridge, Mass. 

At the start of 2022, I asked myself what I needed most for my happiness. My negative self-talk often says that other people don’t like me or won’t listen to what I have to say. But I realized that I needed to live not based on anxiety but on the conviction that my life is Nam-myoho-renge-kyo.

My women’s leader told me that when we help others heal, we heal ourselves. I used to think that my social anxiety prevented me from helping others. But now I was beginning to believe that planting seeds of Buddhahood could become the medicine I needed.

With renewed determination, I wrote to Ikeda Sensei that I was going to share Buddhism with others to become happy. That’s when things really started to change; I carried Nam-myoho-renge-kyo cards everywhere I went, and with each person I met, I shared even one thing about my Buddhist practice.

One memorable moment was during date night with my husband. The restaurant was so busy, and we had not been assigned a server. When I looked around, I noticed that we were the only people of color there. I started feeling discouraged, completely dismissed. Just as I was starting to feel powerless about the situation, I decided: I will not leave here feeling this way. I need to plant seeds before we leave. My determination reminded me that I have everything I need within to bring joy into our date night.

We shared Nam-myoho-renge-kyo with two people at the restaurant. I immediately felt a tremendous sense of joy. By the time we left, my husband and I were smiling and laughing. The server, who I had thought was not attentive to us, was so appreciative when we shared Nam-myoho-renge-kyo with him. He told us that he had been looking into Buddhism, and he was excited to check out the Buddhability website!

I used to think that my social anxiety prevented me from helping others. But now I was beginning to believe that planting seeds of Buddhahood could become the medicine I needed.

When I share Nam-myoho-renge-kyo with the person in front of me, I can express my most authentic self. Planting seeds is the quickest and most effective way to reconnect to my Buddhahood so that I can respond to any situation with a deep sense of joy and respect. And it is not only directed toward the other person; I feel joy for being who am, and I respect my life. Because I decided to respond to a discouraging situation by planting seeds, our date night turned into the most joyful and wonderful night!

The benefits of planting seeds are amazing, the biggest of which is that I feel free from my anxiety, more so than ever. This is because I transformed the function of my anxiety; it is now a reason to share Buddhism.

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